Finding myself


This summer has truly been about finding myself in every way imaginable. Throughout college I was confident and optimistic, but in the months following my graduation I found myself coasting through days numb to the change that was going on around me. I realized that I had lost touch with the girl who could take on anything and had become what I had always feared; an anxious shell of myself. 

I realized quickly that the need to get out of the rut I was in was more important than anything else, so I started to be proactive. I tried to only surround myself with genuine people. I attempted to look at the positive side of situations instead of the negative. Most importantly I tried to warm up to the idea of change. In doing these things I learned a lot about myself. I learned that I’m stronger than I think. That being alone isn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be. That happiness is truly the most important feeling in the world. Most importantly I learned that I am in complete control of what I do with my life. I make my own destiny and no one else can take that away from me.

I was reminded today that my 23rd birthday is literally around the corner and I couldn’t be more excited. I think I am finally at a point where I’m ready to grab life by the balls again and do the things I’ve always wanted to do.  23 may be my best year yet, or at least my most unpredictable but I’m ready for the challenge.

I’m on the verge of something great; I can feel it.

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