self acceptance & happiness

With July quickly passing us by the reality of whats to come this fall is beginning to set in. Moving to a new town, not having a set job and going back to school all seem a bit daunting, but the time for it will come quicker than I could ever imagine.

If you were to have asked me back in 2009 where I would be by this time my answer would definitely not reflect the life I’m living; I thought I’d have a plan, be close to settling down. To be frank, I’m quite happy that my plan didn’t pan out, but that’s not to say I haven’t had my fair share of pity parties. With social media its almost impossible not to compare yourself with other people and I found myself feeling more down than I had in months. I didn’t feel good enough for anything and felt like I might have taken a wrong turn but then I realized that I had an option; I could continue living with this shitty attitude or I could choose to be happy. That’s the beautiful thing about most situations, their outcome depends most on how you choose to interpret the future. So that’s exactly what I’ve chosen to do, I’ve chosen to be happy with where I’m at. At 23 I’m changing things up, I’m working to travel, I’m determined, and most importantly I know that I am good enough.

Cheryl Strayed, my favorite author for those of you who don’t know, said one of the truest things I’ve ever read:

“I'll never know, and neither will you, of the life you don't choose. We'll only know that whatever that sister life was, it was important and beautiful and not ours. It was the ghost ship that didn't carry us. There's nothing to do but salute it from the shore.”

I can’t  cry over what hasn’t happened, because it simply wasn’t meant to be, but I can respect the idea of it and always, always choose happiness. Heres to having fun and enjoying every second of it.