The Words I wish I heard in High School
Today,
while going through clothes and things that had been packed away in an attempt
to de-clutter my life, I started thinking about how far I’ve come. You see, I
think we all go through an awkward phase, but mine was ESPECIALLY awkward. To
put it bluntly, I hated myself in high school. [before you stop reading, I promise this will be a positive post] If you were to ask any of my friends from
that period of my life I’m sure they would say that it didn’t seem that way,
but deep down I quietly ridiculed everything about myself. I used humor as a
defense, tried laughing things off and beat people to the punch. I went through
a weird dark period, but eventually I realized that I couldn’t be happy with anything about myself, or my life, if I
constantly worried about what others thought of me.
It took a
really long time to figure out my self-worth and to realize just because I
didn’t have the perfect body or the best smile or all the brains that I was
perfectly perfect in my own sense of the word. By the time I reached college I
realized that my health was the most important thing and because of that working
out and eating healthy were top priorities. As I’ve gotten older, these
priorities have evolved and grown into a life style change that I think more
people should do. You’d be surprised how much better all aspects of your life
are once you find the balance between your health and happiness.
It breaks my heart to see girls
struggling with insecurity issues every day. I wish I could tell each of them
is that it will get better. That confidence
is a wonderful thing, being healthy is more important than starving your self
and that being body positive are some of the most important things in life. I
am still nowhere near perfect, and I’ll never be, but that’s just the reality
of life. I’m proud with how far I’ve come and I hope that if anyone reading
this has had the same issues that this post will give them something to relate
to.
Be kind, you never know who needs it.
xx
I never knew you hated yourself in high school, you always seemed so happy! I'm so glad you are happy now and changed your lifestyle. I too need to focus on my health (exercise and eating healthy). I do sometimes and then I fall back into my bad habits.
ReplyDeleteI was just incredibly self conscious, i just didn't want people to know it. You've become such a wonderful mom & wife among other things, finding that balance will come to you!
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