Alone

It’s nearing the end of July and I am quickly realizing that the end of summer is going to hit me in the face before I know it. I got lucky that I was able to swing coming back to OC this summer (school and work had me feeling numb and gridlocked back in Pennsylvania) and I found falling back into familiar routines comforting. Routines, though, have a way of making you comfortable and being comfortable isn’t how I personally grow (I know everyone has their own way of figuring things out but for me getting out of my comfort zone is the truest form of self discovery).

In my previous post I talked about forming bucket lists to help you gain the most out of your summer. For me I wanted to focus on making my list about experiencing certain things but more importantly getting to know myself better. On this journey of self-discovery I have managed to learn more about who I am, who I want to be and the things I truly care about. To say it has been eye opening is an understatement. I have become even more grateful for the things I get to do and the people in my life, but I also noticed that I base how I view myself on how others treat me-something I wasn’t aware of until I really started taking a good look at myself. I have finally gotten to a point where I am realizing that even in moments of self doubt I need to remind myself that I am good enough and that I come alive when I am experiencing something new and that I am okay even when I am standing alone. 

So that’s what I am going to do (or at least attempt to do)- stand alone. Because its terrifying and eye opening and worth it.

xx

Here’s what I’ve been up to this past month