simple question, complicated answer

I’ve been unsure of so much in the past few weeks. I’ll admit, I am the textbook example of what a quarter life crisis is all about. I know that many people question the direction their life is going, but this feels deeper-almost like an instinct that I’m not doing enough to get what I want out of life. While processing this flood of feelings I was asked by a friend, “What DO you want?”. It was a simple question but I stood there in silence, struggling to find the right words to explain to them how I felt. Without realizing I began spewing out things that I was afraid of, things I didn’t want to happen, and that’s when they stopped me and asked again, “What do you want?”.

While that question still weighs heavy on my mind and I am definitely no closer to finding the complete answer, there are some things that I am sure of. These things include:

Ø  I want to travel – I know lots of people say this but its something I feel like I need to do. I’ve been lucky to have opportunities to see different places and meet different people, but I know that I haven’t seen even the slightest bit of what’s around me.  

Ø  I want to know people – it may seem odd to some, but there is literally nothing I love more than getting to hear someone’s story. It takes real vulnerability to tell someone, especially a stranger, about yourself but when someone does its beautiful.

Ø  I want to be creative- I used to love photography and writing, and for a good bit of time it was all that consumed my time. I want to get back into the groove of using those outlets to express myself.

Ø  I want to make a difference- Im still working on this one (I honestly have no idea how I’ll do it, but I just want what I’m doing to mean something).

Everyone keeps saying, “You’re young, you’ll figure it out” (I have my doubts but cross your fingers for me).

xx